At Long Last ...

So a few days ago I received a call informing me that I am selected for the position that I had applied for, and the pay was higher than what I had expected. being out of job for quite a long period of time, i immediately accepted it without any hesitation.

Though elated and excited at the same time, but the first thing that came to my mind is that - i really need to give my best this time round, and not give in so easily. after all, i have study loans to pay back as well as a dream to realise.

all these months of searching for a job has not been easy at all, going through round after round of unsuccessful interviews were really demoralising, furthermore, seeing friends around me striving hard towards their goals or even achieving their goals made me felt even more useless.

a while ago, my mom actually asked me why other young adults have their ideal jobs but i don't? at that moment, i do have the urge to tell her my ideal job, but knowing what kind of response i would received, i decided to hold it back. i really do not mind friends and family not supporting me in what i want to pursue, but i would avoid all possible chances of hearing them pouring cold water as they are really really demoralising.

sometimes i do regret not insisting on pursuing the course that i had wanted all along, but then realised that what's done cannot be undone. the only way out now will be to carry on moving forward, but in a different way. yes, i still has not given up the dream of becoming a songwriter, be it as a hobby or a freelance music composer, though i know the route to becoming one will never be easy. but the feeling of having a dream to realise is what gives me the motivation to continue to work hard. because they always say, "you have to work hard for the things you want." and hopefully one day, i can have my friends and family falling in love with a song that i had written myself.

I am not sure when this day will arrive, but I will strive my best to make sure that it does arrive. till then....

"If you dream it, you can do it." - Walt Disney

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